I just need a break from life,

I break from this hell, a break from my knife

It drives me fucking insane, makes the words bleed from the page, even in this new age, they haven’t figured out the antidote to insanity, they keep wallowing in their prosperity

Ignoring all the hate, and suffering in our society, blessing the gods for creating such a wonderful community.

What happens when people start to see the cracks in the wall, start to realize that we’ve already started to fall

The world isn’t a perfect place, It never was, never will be, but people keep trying to make it like what they see in the movies.

I can tell you the truth, all that shit you hear in the news? It’s fiction not fact, they’ve been keeping up this act for too long. I’ve been on the streets for years, hurting from the stars to the heavens ever since I was the ripe age of eleven

I’m diseased from the outside in, this feeling of torture is cutting too deep, deeper than my razors that never seem to work, I still feel the same, one moment of tranquility before I go insane.

It’s worse than depression, because I can still feel the pain, it’s inane, the number of times my thoughts have left my brain

My mama always said “Actions speak louder than words”

Would killing myself be loud enough for you, ma?

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” I said it everyday. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

You said; “You’re gonna pay.”

So you hit me again and again for failing that test but it wasn’t me, Satan was taking me over, that’s why the air was getting colder, at least that’s what you told me.

Now I realize you were crazier than me, so crazy that the littlest thing seemed obscene.

I knew this wasn’t the end of my morbid past, I knew that some day, you would leave me for the trash.

I wasn’t wrong, I never am, except on those 2 tests I failed this past weekend…

I can’t keep up this charade of happiness, people think I’m some no-good trouble-making hoe.

They don’t know my true life, my true song. They’ve got my entire life-story fucked up and wrong.

Fuck you, Fuck them, Fuck the world, I’m out.